Shop Mobile More Submit  Join Login
About Varied / Hobbyist Juliet M.25/Female/Israel Recent Activity
Deviant for 5 Years
Needs Core Membership
Statistics 184 Deviations 4,000 Comments 30,695 Pageviews

Newest Deviations

:dalove:My very own gallery...:gallery: Hope you'll enjoy visiting it!:deviation:

Random Favourites

Greatest works of my favorite authors!!!:iconbeauroseplz:

Journal History




Juliet-M has started a donation pool!
130 / 500
Donate me a few points if you like my works or just have nothing better to do...:D I wish I could get a Premium Membership...

You must be logged in to donate.
  • :iconjoe-maccer:
    Donated Apr 29, 2014, 1:43:22 PM
  • :iconsyrenmoon:
    Donated Dec 12, 2012, 2:01:50 PM
  • :iconskartleng:
    Donated Jun 9, 2012, 5:49:27 AM
  • :iconelectrichyena:
    Donated May 6, 2012, 9:41:25 AM
  • :iconnackmu:
    Donated Jan 17, 2012, 11:31:24 AM
  • :iconsuninthedark:
    Donated Jan 13, 2012, 6:30:16 AM
  • :iconpondinthetardis:
    Donated Dec 17, 2011, 11:46:19 AM
  • :iconteamcharlieswan:
    Donated Dec 12, 2011, 3:28:53 PM
  • :iconsofiesworld:
    Donated Dec 12, 2011, 1:18:00 PM
  • :iconteamcharlieswan:
    Donated Dec 12, 2011, 9:15:05 AM
Almost 2 months ago, on Christmas Eve I wrote a journal full of new New Year's resolutions, excitement and hope for a better future, I actually felt like I knew what I wanted in life and how to do it, but now?... I don't think so. The picture that I drew in my mind is getting kind of unclear and blurry and it makes me feel so frustrated and helpless and fucking angry with myself!!! How could I let the things to go this far, to the point I don't know what to do, where to begin fixing them???  

So I decided to start over. 

I'm failing at college. So I decided to take a break until the fall to figure some things out, things like "Do I really want to be a programmer?" or "Can I do this? Can I dedicate my whole life to something I'm not even passionate about?". Yes, my current job is awful and I want to quit it as fast as possible, but to do this I need to insure my future first - to get a diploma, but to do this I need to figure out what I want to do with my life, where do I see myself in the future and would I be happy doing what I'm learning to do? It will make me secure financially, but happy?... I don't think so. And my happiness was always kinda important to me.:shrug: 
There's another problem with starting again - if I'll choose another major, I'll have to start from the beginning, which means that I just wasted 2 years of my life and lots of money, 'cause education is very expensive in Israel. 

I also decided to have some fun (something I haven't have for a long time, thanks to college) and travel. I'm planning to go to visit Germany this summer with my friend. First we wanted to come in June to Rock Am Ring festival, but then I found out that Rammstien is going on the tour this summer and with them being one of my most favorite bands ever, that was enough for me to change all my plans. 

I felt miserable for so long, bitter and unhappy with my choices, so I decided to do what I love. I watch more movies, I actually go to the cinema at least twice a month, I watch and then rewatch my favorite TV shows (Have you seen "Teen Wolf"?! It's amazing, it has on of the best characters I've ever seen on TV. To those who haven't seen my latest drawings, I'm talking about Dylan O'Brien as Stiles Stilinski) whenever I want. I go out with my friends almost every week. I finally feel alive.

 I don't know what's the point of this Journal, I swear I don't. It started really gloomy and depressing, but in the end I do admit having fun. Maybe this is how I avoid important decisions that will determinate my life, I keep telling myself that I still have time to make my mind about what's right and wrong for me, but if I'm being honest with myself, 7 months is not that long and before I'll blink my eye the time will fly and I still won't know what to do. Does it make any sense? 

I know that I just rumbling at this point, but it always makes me feel better when I talk/write about things that's worrying me and I don't feel like this is something I can tell to my friends and family - they judge me and my decisions enough without them knowing all this shit. I feel bad enough without them trying to belittle me, while telling me how to live my life. I love them, and I know that they want the best for me, but sometimes they're just too much to bear...
  • Listening to: Rammstien
  • Watching: Teen Wolf
  • Playing: Temple Run 2


Juliet M.
Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
You can always connect with me on English, Russian and Hebrew languages!!!;P

Current Residence: Israel
Favourite genre of music: Rock
Favourite photographer: Anyone, who can take a picture of me so that I did not look ugly...:P
Favourite style of art: Pencil drawing
Operating System: Windows 10
Favourite cartoon character: Stewie & Brian Griffin, Bart Simpson, Daria Morgendorfer, Archer
Personal Quote: I don't have low self esteem, I just have low esteem for everyone else.


Add a Comment:
Katsur Featured By Owner May 13, 2016   Artist
Hi. Thanks for the fave! =)
kynliod Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2016  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks ever so much!  =)
HeleneSaether Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for the +fav Hug 
DragonFireArt Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the fav! :D
Eeddey Featured By Owner Edited Feb 16, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you for adding Dylan O'Brien by Eeddey to your Favorites! :happybounce:
Add a Comment: